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The crows pulled him further down into the memories. More and more swarmed in the cave around him. They all wanted to see what lurked within the dark confines of Enma's mind, what the crow sage had been keeping from his charges. Gritting his teeth, he fell back into the first, primal memory that he himself did not even know he remembered. The memory of being picked up right after birth by a Konoha policeman. There was fear in his eyes when he realized what it was he held. Enma cried, kicking and bucking and fighting for the right just to be alive. "The fuck? How the hell am I seeing this?" He asked, but not out loud. The crows were hanging off of the roof, observing what was happening with cold, uncaring eyes. He felt their amusement at seeing his humble origins. Perhaps they were expecting to see him burst out of someone's chest fully formed. They pulled him away now. Just as they had pulled him down, so too did he pull them. He was suddenly in a hundred places at once, totally enveloped in darkness. A great hunger had overtaken these thousand thousand minds and there was nothing to sate that hunger. Reaching up, they all pecked in unison at once. They were bound in a soft surface, whatever warmth there was soon fading. Enma and the birds had one simple choice. Crawl up, get out of there, or die. Forcing their beak against the surface, it was slowly cracked and they broke out weakly, laying in hundreds of nest, breathing their first breath of fresh air.
Looking up, they saw how their parents looked down at them with disappointment. The crows all shook their heads and spoke of how they were lacking. Enma felt a hundred presences get dragged across the floor towards the great mother Izanami. Her cold gaze fell upon each of them at once and laughed, finding them unworthy both of notice and note. They were placed there with each other, those first few members of the suicide squad. Their hatred and rage at the world grew, their anguish lending to screams and rage against the world. They understood how cruel the world could be days after their birth whereas Enma had not been allowed to learn that truth until much later in his life. In reality, Enma heaved, looking up and finding that there was no light coming inside the cave. The crows were all there, all wrapped around him, filling up the space. They wanted to be close to their leader, the man that gave them purpose and a fight where before they had just been left to suffer on the mountain. The crows looked at him reality, their minds melding together so perfectly, and their eyes were as his eyes, cold and blue and devoid of kindness. But they respected his strength. The fire had cooked the meat of one of the cubs so Enma started eating it, allowing the crows to gorge themselves on the body of the other one.
"I never knew bear meat could taste this good." He commented in between bites, once again carefully making sure that the fur was left unharmed. The fur would prove useful for surviving this white wilderness. With his hunger soon sated, he fell down to the stone floor and gasped, finding the crows were not yet done observing his memories. His mind fell to even darker corners in happier times. They observed as he practically flew over the rooftops of Konoha, how he laughed so carefree and people opened their mouths in awe as he zoomed overhead. It was soon after he realized he was capable of using fuuton. He was faster with wind flowing through him, running without a single care in the world. Running to run. The only moments that ever compared to this were the moments when he murdered someone, the moments where he drained life blood from a person and left them less than nothing. Cradled like a baby there in the cave, he remembered Konoha and the rage the village made him feel. He was one cog of many in a great machine that had been around long since he was born. A machine that would be around long after. He stabbed and murdered his way into a position of power. The crows saw the Hokage of the time in his memories. They saw the approving glint in his eyes at the actions Enma had taken. When the crow sage, subtle as ever, turned the conversation to the atrocities he had committed outside the village, the subject was brushed off with a joke. As long as those acts were done for Konoha and done out of sight, the village couldn't seem to care less.
Even now, that attitude perplexed Enma. It perplexed the crows too. They had expected the whole village to be like Enma. Honest, bloodthirsty, never backing down from a fight. Yet what they saw in his memories filled them with disgust. He saw their great mother look at them again, all gathered up right before they were to be sent into the wilderness with Enma. This time, she looked at them with approval. Together, they were strong. Divided, they were weak and utterly devoid of worth. She called them his suicide squad, the harbinger of Enma's arrival. It was strange to hear her speak of him when he wasn't around but she gave him high praise, saying that he was far more powerful than even the five great lords of the mountain. His potential was to be nurtured and it was apparent given how he had even turned a bunch of whelps like them into a fighting force worthy of note. He felt their anger at being individually dismissed. They hated her but they held her in such high respect. They loved her even as they wanted to kill her, as was the way of the crows. As was Enma's way with some people in his life, only love was more respect. The crows saw a flash of golden curls and tried to tear his mind apart to find the memory, but they were not yet that deep into his psyche. Enma fought them off, tearing their minds away while pulling them close.
Gasping for breath, he looked below and saw that the great black tidal wave was pulling him forward, out of the cave. Once again, his hidden desire to fly had compelled them to let him do just that, the whole of the squad forming around Enma's body into the form of a great black bird. Losing himself in them, Enma allowed his mind to become one with them all. Again, he had achieved full synchronization for the briefest moment. Every creature there in the wilderness must have turned and looked at them for Enma saw through their eyes how they were looked upon with a mixture of awe and fear. The crows immediately around him bunched together closely, afraid that he would fall. Enma had no fear of falling. For he was sailing the wind upon jet black wings. There would never be another moment quite like this, quite like the first flight. Enma and his many minds turned the wings, riding the wind and flapping when they needed to do that to stay in the air. Opening his mouth, he released a hearty caw that was heard for miles, sending other birds flying up into the air. He was one step closer to true mastery of these crows and it looked like he would survive this place when all was said and done.